I spent most of yesterday feeling pretty strange. My head has been pretty messed up lately, and I get dizzy and have this crazy sensation in my head, a bit like something is pulling my brain up in the air. I also have pins and needles in my hands and feet, and feel like I am going to be sick.
It's pretty scary.
Funny thing is, that when the doctor told me it was anxiety, well frankly that was a relief. I half expected him to send me for a scan or something.
Going to the gym helps, and I feel better afterwards, so I have been every lunchtime during the week for over 5 weeks now. This has also helped my back out a lot, and as well as my usual back exercises, a friend of Anjali's has been learning The Bowen Technique and has used me for practise. This thing is mental, it's like a manipulation, but it's so delicate and short that frankly if I had paid good money for it, after the first session I would have thought I was getting taken for a ride.
All he does is touch my back a little, and then leave the room for a bit, then he comes back, does something else, and leaves. After about seven or eight trips, we're done. After the first week I was really aching the next day, incredible. This time round I have been in heaven, no lower back pain at all. It's the maddest thing, he practically does nothing, and yet it seems to work better than any physio I have ever been to. If it keeps up like this he'll have a client for life.
Anyway, I guess in the meantime my main problem is still some kind of stress, it seems worse in the week, so it must be work related. Time for another holiday already.
Thankfully, at the end of the day, I decided that maybe the Knorr Chicken Biriani I have in the cupboard was not quite romantic enough for the evenings meal, and so I squeezed us in at Ferndales for some peculiarly french pizza. If ever there was stress relief then it's good food.
However... looking back on a post in which I discussed my anxiety issue, I guess I should be slightly concerned that I subconsiously used the words crazy, mad, and mental.